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on day 11 of my busiest season of the year overtime work marathon, my very old cat has a bad fall from my desk in the middle of the night and i have to take her to the emergency vet on 2 hours of sleep. the vet thinks the fall itself was most likely due to old age neurological and body failure reasons because she shows signs of having pain in her back and having balance issues. shes been given drugs for the next couple of days to see if they help the limp but if not this might be it for the old lady unless i want to throw thousands of dollars on an old animal in bad shape to delay the inevitable. clutching my head on 2 hours of sleep staring at my work schedule having to call and wake up my parents in the morning hoping mom can come over today and im gonna go in to work and talk to my supervisor and see if i can get the next couple of days off but it is literally the worst timing imaginable specifically this week is the absolute worst of the workload we need to crunch through. ill figure things out and if this is it then ive known its been coming for years shes almost 22 years old shes had a good run. sorry just need to scream having a bit of a bad time.

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From what I know 22 years is an incredible lifespan for a cat, wow

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Yeah, 22 is incredible. CW pet death (not Touya) My metamour had one of his cats pass away today after a medical issue, at 10 years. Heā€™s still here visiting us, out of the country, so the news hit pretty hard. Solidarity with you maja.


In lighter news. Wife and I got legal name change stuff sorted at the Social Security office today. And I also found out that my freshman college roommate is working at the same place as her?? The museum has a research and conservation wing, and former-roomie is doing a postdoc there. Kind of wild; I got so distracted thinking about trying to get back in touch with her that I made two wrong turns coming home this evening and added like 10 min to that commute. (Sheā€™s from China and doesnā€™t know Iā€™m trans, so. Could be an awkward one, but this was such an unexpected connection that I kind of want to try it anyway.)

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I drove out from the house a bit today. Walked in nature, saw a movie, browsed a store. I guess this is progress to just spending downtime in my room at my laptop, but I still felt very lonely out there as I donā€™t keep up with non-family people IRL really, and I feel really awkward just trying to talk to someone in a public space.

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Hey, glad to hear the outside time was good for you. Maintaining IRL relationships independently from family is a tough thing, especially when youā€™re kind of starting from scratch. I can talk about what Iā€™ve been trying, if it helps?


Meantime Iā€™ve got an upcoming work trip to deal with. Got the usual stress about it, but Iā€™m trying to be reasonable about it. Gonna get a haircut tho, which will be nice. About a week ago Quinn from @TheGhostQueens started comparing me to Paul McCartney and thatā€™s the warning sign itā€™s gotten too long.

One of these days Iā€™d like to try something that isnā€™t just ā€œshorter and grows into a silly bowl cutā€ but to be honest my hairā€™s quite floppy, so it being short in front means inevitable bangs, and thereā€™s only so much that pomade will do. A question for another time.

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So glad that comparisons to the Beetles are what get you to schedule haircuts, lmao

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I mean. That and starting to feel it down the back of my neck. I wish cropping it shorter than 3/4" looked good, rip. Why does hair have to grow. Why canā€™t I make it an equippable like in video games.

Edit: also fun fact Iā€™d forgotten until now. The Chinese name for the ā€œbowl cutā€ is 锅ē›– or ā€œpot lidā€. Similar beat of ā€œround dome-shaped kitchen itemā€

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Think Iā€™ve had a headache for going on a week but making the best of it. Been a chill Sunday, mostly reading and a bit of gaming after doing some household chores.

Partner will be home all of next week so Iā€™ll have Xanadu Scenario II as background noise for work tasks for a bit.

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You certainly may. Iā€™d almost be afraid to ask others about this, amidst the echoes in my head of my parentsā€™ ā€œItā€™s easier to meet new people once you have a jobā€.

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In a real ā€œthe other kind of nsfwā€ moment, I found some truly worrying food safety violations at work today

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Specifically, more than a few packages of raw ground beef stowed in the same compartment or bag as normal-ass foods, including one that was sitting directly on top of a package of strawberries, also completely uncovered. We have a lot of new folks on the team, as of last week or so, and food safety doesnā€™t really get the attention it should, considering how often we have to deal with raw meat (At one point I actually found raw meat, a carton of eggs, and some other stuff all in one bag, as though those eggs were stay in the carton at all)

Edit: Oh nooooo I thought this was the microblogging thread. Ah well, not really off topic, just maybe not the most on-topic spot

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noOOOOOO OH NO. Other kind of nsfw indeed. I hope the new folks can figure it out soonish

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I donā€™t have quite the brains for a more in-depth post, but the bulk of it for me was trying to
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Thanks Touya, for your very important input. The main thing Iā€™ve been trying is to get into a hobby that involves regular social gatherings, and then attend those gatherings as regularly as you can manage. One is a taekwando class that happens every Tues/Thurs, which I go to after work. The other is a once-a-month SFF book club at my local library.

Iā€™ve had diff results based on the nature of the group/club. Iā€™m not necessarily Familiar with all the people in my martial arts class (especially because many of them are kids and teens), but they are a relatively chill group of people who I enjoy spending time with while working on a shared interest. Itā€™s taken me a year to start like, having conversations with people in class, but itā€™s nice, and having a familiar group of people who recognize me is a good basis to start talking to them more. Meanwhile, the book club doesnā€™t meet as often, but the whole point of the gathering is to come together and talk about a shared interest, which means Iā€™ve been able to talk with them more and get my social fill that way. The few direct social connections weā€™ve made with the members who were our age havenā€™t exactly all panned out, only because not everyone shows up at the same time, but we at least know we enjoy spending time together, and the next time weā€™re at a meeting at the same time, I can try to make an overture to hang out.

Hobby spaces are good because even if you donā€™t hit it off with people at first, you are still getting out of the house and getting to do a thing you like. That first year where I talked to no one was still fun because the group was chill and I liked doing the martial art, so even not talking meant I got to have a good time and wanted to go back. Plus the hobby gives you common ground and a thing to talk about.

The tip Iā€™ve always heard about friendship is that it takes regular, recurring social encounters to form. The actual ā€œtalking to complete strangersā€ part is fucking tough, but a combination of engineering the social conditions to help foster it, and remembering that 1) fucking up small talk is not the end of the world, and 2) that most people even if theyā€™re disinterested arenā€™t gonna want to be rude - people generally want social interactions to go well, and will try to help them go well.

This ended up being way longer than I thought, but I hope itā€™s helpful. I did coincidentally just have a literal powerpoint on ā€œhow to small talkā€ cross my dashboard this morning, so. If thatā€™s also of interest I can pass that on as well.

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This is a good insight to go off of, thank you.

This does indeed interest me.

Here you go!

Itā€™s a post made by a professional nurse, sharing the training she did for other nurses in her department. Some of these pointers are medical-provider specific (i.e. - how to use small talk to assess condition, or communicate with someone whoā€™s in pain/canā€™t communicate their needs without being dismissive or a dick). But a lot of these outline some general concepts, social guidelines, and good examples. Been posting it loads of places because I found it really insightful.

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life update?

ok shit is fucking. stressful right now but iā€™m optimistic i think.

i talked to our mom, weā€™re gonna get us in with a psychiatrist and hopefully get on some better antidepressants. my therapist is gonna help us drop 2/3 of our current college courses, and honestly after this semester we may stop with college for a while because i donā€™t even know if itā€™s for us.

after we get the meds stuff sorted iā€™m gonna take a trip down to our partnerā€™s and stay for a bit to look for a new job. hopefully we can find something good thatā€™ll keep us stable, and once we hopefully get things sorted there iā€¦ guess weā€™re gonna move in. (i should clarify that i am happy about this, my tone is one more of disbelief rather than trepidation)

itā€™s all stressful and uncertain and not how we envisioned any of this going but itā€™s the most of a plan weā€™ve ever had for what to do with our life so i guess weā€™re going with it. kind of terrifying but kind of freeing.

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Hey, kudos on this big life development. My sister and wife both ended up having to leave college, and my sister has opted not to return at all. Itā€™s a big step to choose to leave and Iā€™m happy you could do the hard but necessary thing. Iā€™m glad your mom and partner are supporting you too - good luck with the next steps

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Decent day so far, the F1 was good and I finished one classes worth of test grading.

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@melodica I also dropped out when I was 19! I did go back a few years later to do something else, but I just wasnā€™t ready/in the right space mentally at the time. it sounds like youā€™re feeling reasonably positive about it all but just in case: itā€™s gonna be okay! :)

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Oh! It sounds like kind of a rough walk to get there, but that sounds great! I hope yā€™all can find something good for you, and im glad to hear youā€™ll be with folks who support and love you :3
Honestly we also had no idea where or how our life was going to go after we dropped out (also at 19 lmao, solidarity i guess) but honestly it was a good idea, and continues to have been a good idea since weā€™re uh. Married now, to the love of my life, somehow
Good luck, Iā€™m glad things are working out in their own weird way!!

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we can form a dropped out at 19 gang at this rate! 3 people is enough for a gang!

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