im mostly trying not to make myself disappear (i think with trying to get saved tabs/bookmarks/books read/etc. down to zero it made me get like why am i so focused on endings/getting things out of my life instead of enjoying them, using them to like enhance, decorate, breathe into my life?) and those include:
read more poetry (ideally a poem every day, but at least twice a week)
do some healing on the spiritual abuse front, i dont really know where to start but naming it is miles ahead of where i used to be + i know so much of my shit stems from this root and im wondering who i am without the Intense Shame and Inexplicable Guilt
remember if i stop using something i need to replace it and so theres no point in getting mad at myself when i cant quit something overnight
more good love (given and received)
journal at least once a week
figure out a movement practice that makes my body feel good not just smaller
write a newsletter/obsidian post once a month
submit to one contest/application cycle
finalize the divorce between money and my self worth (idk how this is gonna happen but its 3am and i just really like this phrasing)
as someone who also didn’t like anything about driving and was Certain I never would, good luck! you may find that it gets fun once you’re actually good at it LOL
Ive been driving fir a decade + change and i will say being good hasnt made it fun. In fact ive been radicalized to a fringe position that wants as close to 0 cars to exist /j
Some parts can be fun, but also depending on the car culture in your area will moderate that towards being more or less fun.
I work in downtown Atlanta now, but i used to have to drive across much of North GA and it was pain.
Edit: again im supportive good luck ! Ganbatte! But also boo cars.
: its like Fine
Im one of the weirdo adhders who doesnt mind driving so much or find it extremely hard to do (though our brain will randomly decide that it’s naptime in the middle of driving and try its damnedest to nod off, if anyone has advice on how to make it not do that let me know!)
But yeah its definitely just. A thing that needs doing sometimes. Less of a fan of long (3+ hour) car rides and its a pain to drive when i just wanna already be home and/or am having a bad day but c’est la vie
I mean to be clear I also don’t like cars, I wouldn’t be getting a license if I didn’t absolutely have to for work. but also it’s satisfying in the way getting better at any skill is satisfying and no longer terrifies me, so.
Frankly I also need advice on the “hey don’t nod off” bc on the drive to a fieldwork dock today, my body randomly decided it was naptime for a good 10 min stretch. I’m a road trip liker but anything above 3 hrs starts to become Unpleasant when done solo
but yes, good luck drivers
: its like Fine